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How Do We Get "There"?



My wife is right! Pride is my problem. As I was thinking through my issues at work, they almost certainly have to do with my feeling of "demotion". I have built something and am not able to bring it into full flourish. So, I explained to Mrs. Pirtle yesterday. Side note, I really have to stop sharing so much at work.

So, I have this general feeling of pessimism. I am dreary. I may even be depressed. And I can't shake it.

I read this morning in CG regarding appearances. The way they show up in my life is that I want to be revered, I want to be consulted, I want to be an engine for change. At work, I must humbly say, at the moment, I am not really these things. In my church life, I am not really these things.

But pursuing these things is a miss. Perhaps God would have me pursue the more basic things, matters of the heart and intentions, rather than the fruits of their existence. I may be seeking the fruit rather than the seed.

Lord Jesus, it has certainly been a struggle. Maybe I am almost stripped down to wear you can reach me. I pray so. Help me to seek Your face and not Your hand, the vine rather than the branch, the Spirit not the fruit, what is everlasting and unseen rather than what is temporal and seen.

In Jesus Name,

Amen

Hosea 10:12
New Living Translation
I said, ‘Plant the good seeds of righteousness, and you will harvest a crop of love. Plow up the hard ground of your hearts, for now is the time to seek the LORD, that he may come and shower righteousness upon you.’

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