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A Dim Confidence


This morning CS Lewis conveyed to me in Mere Christianity many ideas I think I will have to go back and examine, but one key idea was the idea of why some people seem to get more of God than others. Lewis likened God's reality, His revealed self, to sunshine in a mirror (or something like that). If the mirror is mucky then it will not be very good at reflecting the radiance of the sun. In a similar way, if a man is mucky, if his heart is impure, his mind unclean, then he will not be able to absorb the light. The light will be distorted and hazy, obscured.

I envy men who are able to jump out and take hold of God offers them. I envy men, if I'm being honest, who are able to jump out and take hold of much less than God. They have confidence, they know they will acquire what they are after. Where does it come from, this confidence? Is it real or imagined?

In any case, I know that God would have us be confident, especially if our life is in Him. So, these are my prayers today:

Lord Jesus, my confidence has been shattered by life. I feel I am mistreated and despised, but am I also mistreating others and overly sensitive? Help me to see clearly. Help me in my anxieties. Help me to know how to make a confident step, inspired by You. And I pray that I would grow in my transparency, my pursuit of what is right. I pray that those around me benefit from my growing in You, in the way that You intend them to.

In Jesus Name,

Amen

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