Let's See Your Resolve

For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. 1 Cor 2:2

Is my resolve resolved? Do I exist in a posture of "let's see how it works out?" The antitheses of Resolve and Resignation confronted me this morning as I considered a playful text response with a friend coming to visit from a great distance. I considered how I am playful often and that the playfulness overlays an insincerity, being posed because I want to be found out. I want someone to care about me enough to call me on my shit so that I can know it's safe to enter into relationship with that person. Because if we merely persist in the games, obviously we pursue superficiality, a "let's see" approach.

On the other hand, what if I were to be the sincere one, more often than not? And I were to search myself for my resolve. How far do I plan to go, and what is the Kingdom premise? What if I were to answer honestly and measure my words?

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